Master and I left our chat last night on something of a bad note. I was cross, sad, and ashamed of something that I can't change, and despite what he said last night, I could sense how disappointed he was. I did not sleep very well last night, thinking about it, and what would happen now. I read the email from my master at work, after a train ride thinking about it all. It turned out he'd been thinking about it as well, and what he said cheered me up. So whilst life won't always be easy, but at least I now know that we can sort it out.
I threatened my master with going across the ocean and slapping him if he ever took his anger out on me, and he told me that he might not let me come back again. I think he meant that to be menacing, but it turned me on!
Today I carried on with my story for master, and I hope he still likes it.
Today I had to finger my ass for 5mins with as many fingers as I could, I managed two. I loved doing that, as master has not had me do anything with my ass for a while. Also I was allowed to put ice cubes in my pussy, which I love, i put three in, and they melted together so I could use them like a dildo. I was so close to cumming, but I managed not to, as I haven't been given permission. I also had to use my index or middle finger and rub it between my pussy lips, not the tip of the finger just the finger itself, the area from the halfway point of my first knuckle to my third. I don't really get this, it didn't do much, so I think that I must have done it wrong.
Anyway I think master has some good plans for me tomorrow so I'll sign off for now.
Tuesday 31 March 2009
Monday 30 March 2009
4th Day
Hi all,
I have had a lovely day today, I got to write a story for my master. I haven't finished it yet. I had to do the socuring pad and clothespin dare today. The scouring pad was ok, bit uncomfortable but as we know I dont like the pegs. My master gave me a small reward for my progress so far, and that made me so happy. Master and I had a good talk last night, and I told him so of my concerns, and although I didn't explain it very well, he understands what I mean. He is so kind to me, I know I harp on that point, but he is.
I like it when he writes about me in his blog, and if you go there (http://chancemaster.blogspot.com/2009/03/how-it-began.html you can see. I did not get punished for my short essay, he loved it! That makes me so happy. Anyway I'm all written out after my story for master, so I'll go now.
I have had a lovely day today, I got to write a story for my master. I haven't finished it yet. I had to do the socuring pad and clothespin dare today. The scouring pad was ok, bit uncomfortable but as we know I dont like the pegs. My master gave me a small reward for my progress so far, and that made me so happy. Master and I had a good talk last night, and I told him so of my concerns, and although I didn't explain it very well, he understands what I mean. He is so kind to me, I know I harp on that point, but he is.
I like it when he writes about me in his blog, and if you go there (http://chancemaster.blogspot.com/2009/03/how-it-began.html you can see. I did not get punished for my short essay, he loved it! That makes me so happy. Anyway I'm all written out after my story for master, so I'll go now.
Sunday 29 March 2009
3rd Day as a slave
Today, I have had to write on myself, I found this very difficult as I felt like a whore writing that I was his property, but when I had done it and taken the picture to prove it to him, I felt happy that he might just feel proud of me. I spank my ass again, which hurt lots after yesterday's spanking. And I have to write an essay for my master about why i want to be his slut. Also I have to fanatasize about anything i chose (i rolled a six), but i have to do it for no less than 20mins, and cannot touch any part of my body or I have to start again. Master knows this is one of my favourite commands. I am going to think about being tied up on his bed, face down, and he will be spanking me, with a ruler, i think. Then he will take me as he pleases, because I am his to do with as he wants.
Today though I want to describe how I feel about being his slave. He is in my opinion the kindest master in the world. He does punish me of course, for example I have to take cold showers all week because I couldn't do the command he gave me of taking showers at 5am. I feel scared by how I feel about him, I feel so strongly.
I feel so bad when I get something wrong, and he has to punish me. I know he doesn't like to punish me but of course he has to, otherwise how will I learn?
I like being his slave because he makes me feel safe, and he will test my limits with me, rather than force me to do stuff. It makes me want to try anything for him. I do find it difficult to follow his commands, some of them make me feel little and worthless, but when i've done them, i feel wonderful, and there is not a word suitable to describe how happy I am when he is proud of me. It makes the pain, humilitation all worth it.
Anyway, I am leaving it there as I have to write my essay now. But I must tell you about my master's blogspot, it is http://chancemaster.blogspot.com/2009/03/how-it-began.html?zx=72ff0f4d12c63313 please go and see it, he is very good at writing.
Today though I want to describe how I feel about being his slave. He is in my opinion the kindest master in the world. He does punish me of course, for example I have to take cold showers all week because I couldn't do the command he gave me of taking showers at 5am. I feel scared by how I feel about him, I feel so strongly.
I feel so bad when I get something wrong, and he has to punish me. I know he doesn't like to punish me but of course he has to, otherwise how will I learn?
I like being his slave because he makes me feel safe, and he will test my limits with me, rather than force me to do stuff. It makes me want to try anything for him. I do find it difficult to follow his commands, some of them make me feel little and worthless, but when i've done them, i feel wonderful, and there is not a word suitable to describe how happy I am when he is proud of me. It makes the pain, humilitation all worth it.
Anyway, I am leaving it there as I have to write my essay now. But I must tell you about my master's blogspot, it is http://chancemaster.blogspot.com/2009/03/how-it-began.html?zx=72ff0f4d12c63313 please go and see it, he is very good at writing.
Saturday 28 March 2009
2nd Day as Master's slave
Well I found out today that my Master has a blog about me (he invited me to look at it) and it is really very good!! I will try and write more elegantly, like my Master. Today I have some good commands to do, I have already rubbed ice over both of my nipples. I liked that a lot, it made my nipples soooo hard. I have written "This body belongs to my master" on my body. Oh and of course I have already taken my cold shower punishment today. I will try my best to behave, as I don't like that at all.
I had to tell my Master what the first thing I would like him to do to me when we meet, but I can't tell you that, it is special between my Master and me. Obviously the rule about not cumming unless I have permission is always in effect, and my Master has not given me permission today, so that will be hard, especially as the little things he says in his emails to me, make me want to cum for him. I have two dares to do today, one involves seeing how many pens I can fit in my ass. The other is a dice dare, but I need to wait for my Master to let me know what he has rolled for me, before I can do it.
I love doing the commands that my Master gives me. Since I met him I am usually turned on all day, which is unusual for me. Apparently not any more. I am nearly always wet for him. Even if I find his commands difficult, I always try and complete them, because I know that he is always right, and he would not hurt me. He always listens to me if I tell him I found it difficult, and if I say something is one of my limits, he does not question that. He has only called me "his slut" once or twice so far, but I loved it when he called me that. I wish he would call me those sort of names more often. But that is his decision to make not mine. I also love it when he calls me his slave and good girl (if I have done something he is pleased with). He takes such good care of me, and I only hope that I can become the slave that he deserves.
Komodo's Slave
I had to tell my Master what the first thing I would like him to do to me when we meet, but I can't tell you that, it is special between my Master and me. Obviously the rule about not cumming unless I have permission is always in effect, and my Master has not given me permission today, so that will be hard, especially as the little things he says in his emails to me, make me want to cum for him. I have two dares to do today, one involves seeing how many pens I can fit in my ass. The other is a dice dare, but I need to wait for my Master to let me know what he has rolled for me, before I can do it.
I love doing the commands that my Master gives me. Since I met him I am usually turned on all day, which is unusual for me. Apparently not any more. I am nearly always wet for him. Even if I find his commands difficult, I always try and complete them, because I know that he is always right, and he would not hurt me. He always listens to me if I tell him I found it difficult, and if I say something is one of my limits, he does not question that. He has only called me "his slut" once or twice so far, but I loved it when he called me that. I wish he would call me those sort of names more often. But that is his decision to make not mine. I also love it when he calls me his slave and good girl (if I have done something he is pleased with). He takes such good care of me, and I only hope that I can become the slave that he deserves.
Komodo's Slave
Friday 27 March 2009
1st Day as my Master's Official Slave
This morning I got up at 5.40am, to make sure I could get to work on time. But first I had to have my cold shower (a punishment, for taking clips off of my pussy lips too soon last night), this was after sleeping naked with no covers on. I have not been warm all day! I get to wear pyjamas tonight, which i dont really like. I was allowed to cum three times today, but it had to be twice at work and once at home. I couldn't cum at work, so I can only cum at home once now. Master had me do a dice dare at home, these are the options:
Where:
1. Right nipple
2. Left nipple
3. Both nipples
4. Balls/Vagina Lips
5. Both nipples & balls/vagina lips
6. LUCKY. Choose one.
How many:
1. One each place
2. Five each place
3. Ten each place
4. Fifteen each place
5. 30 each place
6. LUCKY. Choose one.
Where:
1. At your computer.
2. Outside.
3. In front of your living room window.
4. During class at school
5. In the bathroom.
6. LUCKY. Choose one.
How long:
1. 1 min.
2. 3 min. & and every minute rotate 90 degrees clockwise.
3. 7 min.
4. 13 min.
5. 30 min. & every 5 minutes rotate 90 degrees clockwise.
6. LUCKY. Choose one.
Penalties [If you can't keep them on that long or can't do it in the location specified]:
1. Add 2 clips for every clip you take off.
2. Add 4 clips for every clip you take off.
3. Every clip you take off costs you one item of clothing. Put the clothes in the toilet when you take them off.
4. Every minute you don't last you equals x hours you can't go to the bathroom. [X being number of minutes you didn't last]
5. For the next two days after everything you say add one of the phrases to it - 1. "in bed" 2. with Michael Jackson" 3. "with Elmo" 4. "to have sex with" 5. "with my mom's boyfriend" 6. LUCKY. Choose one.
6. LUCKY. Choose one.
Master rolled for me, they were as follows: 1, 2 ,3, 3, 1, this means, I had right nipple, 5 clothespins, in front og my living room window, for 7mins, and that if for every peg I took off I would have to put on 2 more. This was hard to fit 5 pegs on/around my right nipple as they arent that big! but I did it, and man did it hurt, but I left them on for the requisite 7mins, and stod in the window. I felt so dirty. I have discovered that they hurt more when you take them off, and I didn't have Master there to kiss them better :-(.
Master had me do a dice dare at work all day today. I did manage it, but the people I work with think that I have some sort of bladder problem, as every hour I had to use the bathroom. It was hard work, but I managed it. I had to roll a dice every hour, until every dare had been done.
I have been so busy today with my Master's commands, but I have loved it, he is testing my limits at the moment, as I have never been a slave before. I have not really got to speak to my Master much today, and that makes me sad, but also happy because I know he will be enjoying what he is doing. All in all it has been a very enjoyable first day as his official slave, I look forward to many more.
Where:
1. Right nipple
2. Left nipple
3. Both nipples
4. Balls/Vagina Lips
5. Both nipples & balls/vagina lips
6. LUCKY. Choose one.
How many:
1. One each place
2. Five each place
3. Ten each place
4. Fifteen each place
5. 30 each place
6. LUCKY. Choose one.
Where:
1. At your computer.
2. Outside.
3. In front of your living room window.
4. During class at school
5. In the bathroom.
6. LUCKY. Choose one.
How long:
1. 1 min.
2. 3 min. & and every minute rotate 90 degrees clockwise.
3. 7 min.
4. 13 min.
5. 30 min. & every 5 minutes rotate 90 degrees clockwise.
6. LUCKY. Choose one.
Penalties [If you can't keep them on that long or can't do it in the location specified]:
1. Add 2 clips for every clip you take off.
2. Add 4 clips for every clip you take off.
3. Every clip you take off costs you one item of clothing. Put the clothes in the toilet when you take them off.
4. Every minute you don't last you equals x hours you can't go to the bathroom. [X being number of minutes you didn't last]
5. For the next two days after everything you say add one of the phrases to it - 1. "in bed" 2. with Michael Jackson" 3. "with Elmo" 4. "to have sex with" 5. "with my mom's boyfriend" 6. LUCKY. Choose one.
6. LUCKY. Choose one.
Master rolled for me, they were as follows: 1, 2 ,3, 3, 1, this means, I had right nipple, 5 clothespins, in front og my living room window, for 7mins, and that if for every peg I took off I would have to put on 2 more. This was hard to fit 5 pegs on/around my right nipple as they arent that big! but I did it, and man did it hurt, but I left them on for the requisite 7mins, and stod in the window. I felt so dirty. I have discovered that they hurt more when you take them off, and I didn't have Master there to kiss them better :-(.
Master had me do a dice dare at work all day today. I did manage it, but the people I work with think that I have some sort of bladder problem, as every hour I had to use the bathroom. It was hard work, but I managed it. I had to roll a dice every hour, until every dare had been done.
These were the dice options:
1-No panties for an hour.
1-No panties for an hour.
2-One clothespin on each pussy lip for 12 minutes.
3-No bra for an hour.
4-One clothespin on clit for 12 minutes.
5-No bra and no panties for an hour
6-One clothespin on each nipple for 12 minutes.
I rolled: 1,1,5,4,6,6,2,2,3.
The next task my master gave me has to be done every hour for when I'm home until midnight and will involve the chance of a coin flip.
The next task my master gave me has to be done every hour for when I'm home until midnight and will involve the chance of a coin flip.
If heads-Spank each of your bare ass cheeks 18 times, with the back of a hairbrush or a paddle of some sort, as hard as you can.
If tails-Edge every five minutes for that whole hour. You may use your one cum at the end of one of these hours or any other time.
I will have been home for 4 hours by midnight, the first hour I will have to spank my ass ceeks, the second and third hours, edging, and the fourth hour spanking.I have been so busy today with my Master's commands, but I have loved it, he is testing my limits at the moment, as I have never been a slave before. I have not really got to speak to my Master much today, and that makes me sad, but also happy because I know he will be enjoying what he is doing. All in all it has been a very enjoyable first day as his official slave, I look forward to many more.
Thursday 26 March 2009
Well this is it, I finally made it through the week's trial that my master put me through. It was very hard, because all I wanted was to be his slave, and I was so worried that he wouldn't want me. But HE DOES. I am so happy to finally have a master. He cares about me, and gives me commands that make me feel so many different things. This blog will be to keep him and anyone else interested in my progress, updated.
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