Today, I have had to write on myself, I found this very difficult as I felt like a whore writing that I was his property, but when I had done it and taken the picture to prove it to him, I felt happy that he might just feel proud of me. I spank my ass again, which hurt lots after yesterday's spanking. And I have to write an essay for my master about why i want to be his slut. Also I have to fanatasize about anything i chose (i rolled a six), but i have to do it for no less than 20mins, and cannot touch any part of my body or I have to start again. Master knows this is one of my favourite commands. I am going to think about being tied up on his bed, face down, and he will be spanking me, with a ruler, i think. Then he will take me as he pleases, because I am his to do with as he wants.
Today though I want to describe how I feel about being his slave. He is in my opinion the kindest master in the world. He does punish me of course, for example I have to take cold showers all week because I couldn't do the command he gave me of taking showers at 5am. I feel scared by how I feel about him, I feel so strongly.
I feel so bad when I get something wrong, and he has to punish me. I know he doesn't like to punish me but of course he has to, otherwise how will I learn?
I like being his slave because he makes me feel safe, and he will test my limits with me, rather than force me to do stuff. It makes me want to try anything for him. I do find it difficult to follow his commands, some of them make me feel little and worthless, but when i've done them, i feel wonderful, and there is not a word suitable to describe how happy I am when he is proud of me. It makes the pain, humilitation all worth it.
Anyway, I am leaving it there as I have to write my essay now. But I must tell you about my master's blogspot, it is http://chancemaster.blogspot.com/2009/03/how-it-began.html?zx=72ff0f4d12c63313 please go and see it, he is very good at writing.
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